Jack McCabe

awesome!

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 01:50:03 GMT

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perhaps one day i will take this test and NOT be a cocktail cus u know that is me, im all about the cock... and tails....

awesome!

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 01:49:20 GMT

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perhaps one day i will take this test and NOT be a cocktail cus u know that is me, im all about the cock... and tails....

awesome!

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 01:48:47 GMT

Take the quiz: "How emo are you?"

Holy Shit Your Emo
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Cocktail

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perhaps one day i will take this test and NOT be a cocktail cus u know that is me, im all about the cock... and tails....

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 22:36:31 GMT

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Ok lil drunk, hence the quizes, but they r fun..

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 01:15:44 GMT

You scored as emo.

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emo

70%

Hardcore/Metal Head

70%

SKater

50%

Poser

40%

Prep

30%

What steriotype do u fall under
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oh god... emo... anthony will kill me.

You scored as Finger fuck. Oh! Oh! Oh! yeah! more!

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Finger fuck

94%

Licking body parts (like pecs and abs)

81%

Kissing

81%

Jerking each other off

81%

Blowjobs

69%

Eat cum

69%

Going all the way-fucking

63%

Rimming

63%

Massages

44%

How far would you go when experimenting with a guy? (guys only)
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(chuckles) well...

You scored as Reicarnation: Other. Mother nature is your name, reincarnation is your game. However this time, you or no longer human but an animal or plant that you care. Maybe your past life was this creature of nature...

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Reicarnation: Other

81%

Reincarnation: Human

81%

Heaven

75%

Ghost

63%

Underworld

38%

Where will you go after you die?
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You scored as You'll die young. Oh dear, you're probably going to die in a car crash or some sort of drug overdose, or maybe some mix-up with mobsters. Don't blame me, blame the quiz!

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You'll die young

69%

A little bit dead

50%

Pushing up the daisies

44%

Young, free and not very dead.

31%

Almost there...

31%

How close are you to dying? (really accurate... honest...)
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Lol

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 01:04:51 GMT

You scored as Eating Disorders. Congratulations! You have an eating disorder! You know what it's like to have "fat" eyelids and that there's exactly 58 calories in one medium-sized green apple. Western society has discarded your well-being for sickly, paper-thin models and celebrities; welcome to the club, sister.

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Eating Disorders

83%

Borderline Personality Disorder

50%

Unipolar Depression

50%

Antisocial Personality Disorder

42%

Schizophrenia

33%

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

25%

Which mental disorder do you have?
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What the fuck?! 58 calories in an apple. Oh great.
Well at least bi Polar is still in there... which is what its always been before... hmmm lol, just ask Sophie about it.

You scored as Inhalents. Sniffing chemicals you found under the sink again? Tsk tsk! This will lead you nowhere, and your high will only last a few minutes, or even seconds. You're breathing in toxins which cause deprivation of oxygen to your brain.Did you know you can DIE the first time you try huffing? Go for somethin else, babe.

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Inhalents

81%

Marijuana

75%

Cocaine

63%

Ecstacy

56%

Alcohol

56%

None!

50%

Mushrooms

50%

What's your ideal drug?
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Now u see this one is the same... I shud really think of buying some glue, all the signs point towards me loving it :D. Its like poppers.... only cooler.

well...

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 00:45:55 GMT

Well. I havn't updated here for a while.
Basically I quit my broadband server and a coupla weeks later got a new one, and without the everyday-ness of it all i ended up stopping coming here.
But now ive had a few drinks
and this is my perfect outlet. I gave up on deadjournal cus all my mates on there got past the angry teenage rebellion i hate life stage... oh the joy.
Meh, u know that feeling, well its back. the loathsome, self pitying, destructive one. Ohh i'd forgotten the full force of that, and that aint the drink talking. I've felt like this for about 2 weeks... Pretty much after i accepted that Anthony doesn't love me for who i am.
Whoot.
Despite friends words of advice (I see or hear about u throwing up once more and i will kill you) it aint all roses kiddies.
I'm gunna change. And it aint about how i do it really is it? Its about the end results.
Man, If Stef, emily, matt and andrea read this and remember its me, it will have been worth it.
I know i shud of updated when things were better, but u just dont think do you?
I can't even say i feel better (necks the rest of the whisky)... well maybe a little
See u round kids.

Comment if u want. I feel the need to catch up and retain my 15 year old emo alterior personality (which is making one helluva come back, again blame anthony)

Jack
xxx

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 23:25:40 GMT

oh my god
i am so fucking low.
what a cunting comedown

Ho yes

Sat, 12 Feb 2005 03:08:35 GMT

You scored as Pride.

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Pride

88%

Envy

88%

Sloth

81%

Lust

63%

Greed

56%

Gluttony

44%

Wrath

44%

Seven deadly sins
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Lust is surprisingly low on that one... am i losing my touch?

Ho yes

Sat, 12 Feb 2005 03:07:38 GMT

You scored as Pride.

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Pride

88%

Envy

88%

Sloth

81%

Lust

63%

Greed

56%

Gluttony

44%

Wrath

44%

Seven deadly sins
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Ahhh man

Sat, 12 Feb 2005 02:19:56 GMT

You scored as Borderline Personality Disorder. Congratulations! You have BPD! You know how to see things in black and white, desperately cling to unstable relationships and are a master of wrist-banging... rational emotions? Who needs 'em!

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Borderline Personality Disorder

83%

Unipolar Depression

67%

Eating Disorders

58%

Antisocial Personality Disorder

50%

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

42%

Schizophrenia

42%

Which mental disorder do you have?
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Miss Carter would love to read this, in fact, if i gave her my entire journal shed have fun trying to figure out if i am actually fucked up, or maybe im just a particulally teenage tennager.... I'd love to let her ry asnd work it out, maybe i AM fucked up, and just dont want to say in class... omg thats me... eep. Now im drunk im so considering giving her the link to my journals...
maybe i should... what u think???? ah well Barcelona should be fun., fun and u know what i mean.

So Very True.

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 19:29:14 GMT

You scored as Mindfuck. Congratulations, you scored Mindfuck. You've probably seen a lot of movies, and have grown to hate mainstream shit. You're looking for the movie that will leave you breathless, and with 21 questions to think about. Check out: Donnie Darko, Being John Malkovich, Pulp Fiction, Memento.

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Artistic

90%

Mindfuck

90%

Drama/Suspense

70%

Sci-Fi/Fantasy

65%

Sadistic Humour

60%

Romantic Comedy

35%

Mindless Action Flick

25%

Movie Recommendation.
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Wow, surprisingly true. :) All good. Godamn I hate Universtiys. Why can't they just say fucking yes or no without all these godamn interviews and extra fucking work. Its not like i'm guna get in. Do I even want to get in? I dont know if i do anymore?

Uber... i think

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 23:57:52 GMT

Inhalents

81%

Marijuana

69%

Cocaine

63%

Ecstacy

63%

Alcohol

63%

Mushrooms

56%

None!

38%

What's your ideal drug?
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Unipolar Depression

67%

Borderline Personality Disorder

67%

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

42%

Eating Disorders

42%

Antisocial Personality Disorder

33%

Schizophrenia

33%

Which mental disorder do you have?
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Who would of thought it....

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 20:45:25 GMT

Who would of thought that the first time in six months that i cut would be because my brother ate my dinner?

Who would of thought that so much anger and resentment could of built up in six months to the point where my brother eating my dinner could cause me to flip out so violently?

Who would of thought that i could hate him so much that I have banned him from my room, the computer, talking to me, even making eye contact with me because him eating my sweet and sour chicken dinner with egg fried rice could top off all the things I hate about him in to one big fire ball?

Who would of thought that i cud be capable of smashing a picture of my deceased pets just so i could get the glass from the picture frame to cut my arms with?

Who would of thought that six months of pain and bitterness and godamn willpower would stop me only for me to break at this point?

Who would of thought it, eh?

Birthday Boy

Sun, 31 Oct 2004 20:34:20 GMT

Well hello chickens,

Hows life?

Man, just a quick post becasue i feel that i shud.

New York was amazing, really fucking cool, i think the not drinking helped, cus i did drink but not lots so i felt really good but yeh, did everything. like empire state building, helicopter rides, meeting celebrities (Sarah Jessica Parker and David Duchovney (oh hell yes)), and much shopping so it was all good.

Then birthday was wicked, main present being new york so the actual day was cool just a nice meal with family and laura and the hard rock cafe. Very relaxing. and drinking far too much on friday night.
Ow

Alecs party rocked, thought that was very nice, and got a lil shout out :D thank you alec.
And i shall see you all soon. whoop

Tell me no one else has done this drama,

love n hugs

Jack
xxx

Hell yes!

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 23:56:01 GMT

*The \\*
Last Cigarette:	....now
Last Alcoholic Drink:	wine... also now
Last Car Ride:	to the video shop (choices... eeeeeee Brett eeeeeee)
Last Kiss:	hell... probs beth in subculture unless its pecks
Last Good Cry:	... maybe when i was barred a year n 4 months ago or so
Last Library Book:	Gone with the Wind
Last book bought:	Blackwood Farm - Anne Rice
Last Book Read:	Wind in the Willows but that dont count so gone with the wind
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:	King Arthur
Last Movie Rented:	50 first dates and cold mountain
Last Cuss Word Uttered:	twat i think
Last Beverage Drank:	wine
Last Food Consumed:	beans on toast (hell yes)
Last Crush:	hmmm... yeh, her, B damn drama
Last Phone Call:	to Flick
Last TV Show Watched:	Q.I.
Last Time Showered:	this afternoon
Last Shoes Worn:	my vans
Last CD Played:	scissor sisters
Last Item Bought:	Korn album
Last Download:	Kasabian - processed beats
Last Annoyance:	my brother
Last Disappointment:	not going out 2nite
Last Soda Drank:	bottle of coke 2 days ago
Last Thing Written:	aside from this? Psychology notes
Last Key Used:	front door key
Last Words Spoken:	heres the dog, goodnight.
Last Sleep:	last night
Last Ice Cream Eaten:	good god... no idea
Last Chair Sat In:	el computer chair
Last Webpage Visited:	aside from lj... well only kirsty should know that... lol
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

again, yes i know but im drunk and who cares.

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 22:51:53 GMT

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hmmm

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 22:07:33 GMT

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Good god...

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 22:09:49 GMT

Right well i think i better explain myself, to myself, and try and make sense of all this.

Brothers a nob and i burnt my hand on a shot glass, that looks fun, kinda like a lunar eclipse on my hand

but me and mother had a massive fight, and i screamed everything at her, like everything, absoloutly everything you know about me.

so now
i have an appoitment at the doctors on wednesday morning.

-Sighs-

maybe it will be a good thing. Shes paying 180 quid for a psychiatrist on Bupa...

i wonder what shes going to tell dad.

Sowwy

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 22:41:33 GMT

OK I know every done this so its odd and cliche, but i thought i might as well,
cus Im that bored.

Age: 17
Age you started cutting: 13
Sex: Male
Why you started cutting: Dont know i was just angry once, fell out with lots of people and i picked up a compass i do believe, and started
Tell me about the first time you cut: It was odd, kinda hurt, but in a good way, and even though no one else knew it made me feel good to see them when i had my shirt sleeve up, or accidentally felt them.
How often you cut: It goes in waves, of I will when im really angry, and upset, and usually drunk, then usually a coupla times in the 3 or 4 weeks afterwars, then i stop for a coupla months then it starts again.
One deep cut or lots of little scratches: Both, more scratches
Are you recieving help?: No.
Where you cut most often: Arms, inside of my left usually, less theres lots already there.
Tool of choice: hmm, Kitchen knife, half serated, and smooth, sometimes scissors, compass.
How many people know: Most of my close friends.
Do you lie about cutting: yeh, sometimes, all the time to my rents
Do you cry when you cut: No.
Does cutting make you feel better: Yes,for a while.
Do you want to stop: I want to stop cus i dont like the hassle of my mates, but in myself im content to carry on.

Again, sorry for ANOTHER onoe of those posts, but just wanted to, feel like ive completly taken a back seat in the community and watned to get and and talk to people again.

x Jack x

Fucking Kevs.

Sun, 30 May 2004 01:21:07 GMT

Oh my god…
My brothers just woken me up and been like yeh jack cum downstairs the police want to talk to you, and I was like… wtf ok.
So I went downstairs and this copper , at 2 15 in the morning, says yeh Ive just picked these two up (my bro and his mate) because theres been a coupla cars round here broken into in the past few nights and first he wudnt have thought it was max but when they saw the car they bolted.
Turns outs theve both got knives on them, fucking kevs. SO the coppa collared em and brought em round and he said he didn’t know if thedy got nething to do with it but if a cars been broken in to tonight first place hes gunna look is here, then my dad cums downstairs and all hell breaks loose and gives my brother a right smack lol.
Fucking idiot bring the coppers round here after 2 in the morning..

Ok and now two naked kevs… oh I lie there wearing trainers, and two kevs in boxers and trainers have just walked past my house looking rather panicked….
WHERE the fuck do I live?
And I cant sleep now,
Wankers.

Incubus!

Wed, 12 May 2004 07:45:00 GMT

Wow, very very good, altho people were odd, and drank a little too much, stop that jack. but absoloutly fantabulous band and gig :D

Sun, 02 May 2004 23:56:24 GMT

Also, forgot to add. I cut my arms to ribbons.
It all comes back, this was before the cemetary incident.

sorry i havnt updated.

Sun, 02 May 2004 23:44:31 GMT

Sorry Ive not been around for a while...
kinda been on my own, inside my own head, and to be honest its not working out for me.
where to start...
Various friends thru my own fault and leaving it all to late cudnt cum round tonight, so i ended up sitting and watching tv and drinking two bottles of wine, why do me and my mother have the same taste in wine... odd neway, yeh after two bottles i wasnt een barley tipsy... very very scary. just wasnt in the mood u know.
After sleepy hollow decided take my dog for a walk cus she aint been out since yesterday morning. I walked for about half an hour and ended up by the cemetary so i went in...

At first it was all ok, cus there was you know, stuff to read and look at. I didnt find one gravestone of a person under 49. And so i was walking round and saw all these tiny headstones. I'd stumbled upon this... childrens graveyard, no babies... I didnt find one person under a year old and i looked at most of them. But one, one really fucked me up. I saw it and i just stared then tried to back away and fell over and just started crying.

It looked like a normal grave... (sounds so fucking stupid) but some1 had been there within the past 2 or 3 days. they'd left stuff. like an apple and an orange and a bottle of water.. rotting, but only for 2 or 3 days at the most and i glanced at the gravestone... just to see who it was.
It was completly blank. Absoloutly nothing, no name no date nothing and that really hurt me. I litrally ran out of the cemetary till i saw these other graves. Not normal graves, like really frewsh ones ... all mounds... befgore the coffin collapses. I dont know why but it really freaked me out, really badly...

Ok im sorry, didnt mean to be a freak, just felt like i needed to tell someone.

Mon, 08 Mar 2004 23:07:05 GMT

First we were at a gig, then there was a break the we talked about her and he asked me what to do, then i didnt want to tell him, then i told him if he really likes her he wudnt give a shit what his friends think, then later they were being really harsha nd dramatc, like she was all bleeding from the mouth and the whole computer and chair and nastiness thing,
and i took it all out on my brother.